stars flew across my room))

2005-03-31T21:05:00.000+08:00

You scored as Musical/Rhythmic. You are sensitive to sounds in your environment, enjoy music and prefer listening to music when you study or read. You learn best through melody and music. People like you include singers, conductors, composers, and others who appreciate the various elements of music.

Musical/Rhythmic

93%

Interpersonal

89%

Intrapersonal

89%

Verbal/Linguistic

86%

Visual/Spatial

82%

Bodily/Kinesthetic

68%

Logical/Mathematical

61%

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
created with QuizFarm.com

Eb major - you are warm and kind, always there for
your friends, who are in turn there for you.
You are content with your confortable life and
what you are currently achieving; if you keep
in this state you will go far.

what key signature are you?
brought to you by

2005-03-28T17:24:00.000+08:00

Lab Confusion.

hw: joel and nic ah. later have physics lesson at bio lab. pass the message
joel: ?!?!?
nic: huh?
hw: just go lah!
went up. second floor. followed nic into the lab.
joel: eh you sure this is bio lab?
nic: yah..
joel: then why is there test tubes on the table?
nic: oh. sorry. wrong floor. this is chem lab.
joel:?!?!?
went up approaching third floor
nic: hey. i think i remb. phy lab at 4th floor
joel: oh yah. then lets go up lah.
went fourth floor. then realised that its at the bio lab
joel:BIO LAB LAH!
nic:...
hw:?!?!?
----

Who am I, that the eyes that see my pain
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

2005-03-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

Argh.

Sometimes I really wished i could stop everything for a second and just take a break from it. But this never seems to happen. Day after day, homeworks cleared, and you'll have more work. It seemed like an eternal chore. Holidays dont mean anything to me now. I rather have them switched to normal school days.

Everybody's tired. Why cant I also be? I'm not superman you know. Of course i do get pissed and angry. LOOK at the load of work im doing! You do not need to go around saying this and that. I've had enough. You want it? Now you get it.

"WOOOHOOO! JOEL'S THIS SUPER BIG ASSHOLE WHOSE CHARACTER HAS CHANGED THROUGH THE MONTHS. COME... COME.... COME.. LETS ALL OSTRASIZE HIM. IT'S SO FUN DOING IT. HE'S THIS BIG FAT FUCKING IDIOT WHOSE ACTING CUTE AND ALWAYS FLIRTING WITH GIRLS! HAHAHA. JOEL IS AND WILL ALWAYS BE - THE GREAT PRIEST OF ALL FUCKHEADS! YAY!!!" *cheers*

Lets just say. Joel is the all-so-always-infamous COUNT VON EVIL. Oh baby, let's push all the blame on him!! I am always the innocent party. I am 100% innocent. JOEL IS THE ONE. I DONT CARE HOW HE FEELS. LETS JUST ALL PUSH IT TO HIM! muahahaha!

2005-03-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

Dear God

Please grant me the discipline to study. For i am lost. I am a lost sheep waiting for you to carry me back. Help me, strengthen me and guide me to focus on the work i have to do. Tolerate my laziness and bring me to change to be more and more like you. Shower me with your love and abundant blessings and let me make use it in a right way. Also help me in my spritual life, for i sense that i am drawing further and further away from you. Help me to manage my time. Be with me when i practice my work. Let me concentrate and keep me away from anger if i get those questions incorrect. Give me the courage to face the questions and redo it again and again, till the day i get it right. Make me motivated again.

And i know all these blessings will come upon me because you are the one true God, who is merciful and always there for me; forgiving my sins and always carrying me back to the sheep's pen when i, the sheep, is lost.

I pray and ask all these things through your son, Christ Jesus

Amen.

2005-03-14T15:06:00.000+08:00

CAMERON HIGHLANDS IS FUN!

well. im blogging here in this lousy internet cafe. checked gmail for files, also cannot open. sign in MSN messenger also cannot. shit.

anyway, the weather here's super cool. around 20-22deg. well its much more colder in the morning. oh yah. THE BUS RIDE UP IS HORRENDOUS. the driver's so reckless and the cliff is like WTF?!?! 1metres apart? and the road goes like "turn left, turn right, turn right, turn left" FOR ONE AND A HALF HOURS! oh well. at least the food here is nice. heh.

well. will blog again when im back on wednesday morning. probally upload some cool picture i took.

in the meantime, chill (:

2005-03-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

some time i really wonder how it feels like being loved.

sweet?
sour?
bitter?
saltish?
or maybe bittersweet.

i've been searching for the answers for quite some time now.
no avail.

well suddenly it reminisces me of my younger days
when we guys go "yuck" to girls for typing ponytails
when we had to "put our fingers on our lips" and hold the girl's hand
when we played hide and seek and challenged the girls for "catching"
when we called the girl "crybaby" when she cried

amazing int it?

2005-03-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS.

you guys should see this clip man. showing how they skin animals ALIVE !!

http://my.so-net.net.tw/sirwang/fur.wmv

not for the faint hearted. btw i closed the window halfway. too GORY for me.

2005-02-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

as days and days pass by
things changes
you get to see many things
that you could not even have thought off
some are pleasant
some are not
some even hold such nostalgical memories
life's are being changed

but do us, people feel it?
did we even stop and wonder
what's life all about?
what's the purpose of us being created?
what's our motto in live?
what do we wanna do with our lives?

to talk is easy
yet to do, seems so impossible
saying "im a man of my word" is easy
but being a true gentleman isn't.

why do people think that life's so easy?
why do they think life's a straight, simple path
wrong perception?
maybe
or do they just breeze through life like that

then suddenly you feel worn out, restless
feel tired easily
can't walk properly
when you look back in life,
i really wonder
before living Earth
how many would actually say
"I have no regrets living this life of mine."

Life = 1
take it positively
or negatively.
live it the way you want
it's your call.

2005-02-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

homeworks, agendas, my personal study stuffs and events for the weekend.

1. Social Studies WS
2. Chemistry TYS
3. Physics WS
4. A Maths WS
5. A Maths NB
6. E Maths
7. Grammar Express
8. zuo ye
9. si zi
10. Revise for E Maths test
11. Do Physics TYS if you want
12. Revise A Maths
13. Read up Chemistry again
14. Revise Physics
15. Wash the clothes
16. Iron clothes
17. Prepare work for french class
18. Choir tomorrow

Sounds interesting eh?

2005-02-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

it was the day after valentine's.
i was taking the subway home.
i saw a couple. and she was hold three stalks of roses.
they were embracing each other.
"how sweet. i thought."
alighted at the same station.

then, it happened.
i saw her threw one of the rose that appeared to be dying.
vivdly saw the man's expression.
still couldn't figure it out.

why did she do such a thing?
gift from her boyfriend.

i was comtemplating, what if we were actually the roses.
if we're on our death beds. if we have diseases.
would people fear you?
would your friends leave you behind?

well i think most of them would.
can't blame them. life's like that.
----

im confused.
im giving you time.
but you're being nonchalant and naive about it.
i told you i didnt like you.
and you believed it.
then you didnt msg me.
or are you still putting up that false front?
tell me. talk to me.
lie to me.
cuz i might not be able to handle the truth.
when i see your eyes. yours just sparkles.
it's so captivating.
you just shine apart from the rest.

my heart's open.
why isnt yours?

2005-02-11T01:09:00.000+08:00

ahh valentine's coming.
but is it all about?
to me, its just a day when something great's gonna happen to you, or maybe the worst day in your life when someone actually breaks up with you.
most importantly, it's a day where people renew their love for one another.

sometimes i just find it sososo fake. a bluff.
why?

people don't even know the meaning of love.
when a guys asks a girl if she would wants to "stead" with him
she'll probally go "stead? stead lor." or maybe "anything lor"
they do not know what they really want.
i was talking to a friend of mine just now. i asked her "what do you really see in him that you become his 'stead'?"
she giggled and responded "dunno lor. he wanna 'stead' then 'stead' lor."

what are most singapore teenagers turning to? sigh.
they 'stead' just to be together. why? dunno.
maybe even worse.
it might be for sex
just to pass valentines day perhaps.
then duped her.

i have encountered many girls. some of them have crushes on a guy because he's popular, rich, handsome or maybe own a 2door bmw couplet. an infactuation maybe. but every time i see this, i'll be filled with total disgust. disgust for her. how damn immature can they be?
i also have encountered guys, who just wanna be with a girl just to pass valentine's. fuck. and SADLY IT'S HAPPENING IN MY SCHOOL NOW. now that guy's an assinine. BUT the girl's too naive too. what to do?

true love is about caring for one another
true love is being with them when they need you
true love is being able to connect with one another even if you're in singapore and he's in germany.
true love is having such excruciating pain when you don't see him for the day.
TRUE LOVE IS WILLING TO DIE FOR YOUR LOVED ONES.
TRUE LOVE, LASTS ETERNALLY.

when you see an 83 year old woman feeding porridge to her husband who has a stroke, or maybe when you see her changing his diaper when he has urinary problems, that what i called TRUE LOVE.

or maybe when you see a 45 year old man controling his lust, that's also called TRUE LOVE.

i dont see that happening in my school.
immature? maybe
or isit that we live in a world too materialistic?
or isit something else?

until now, i still cant think of an answer.
even if i thought of it, it might just be wrong.
what do you think?

really i don't see that happening.
to think people still write on their neoprint or msn nick "i love you 4eva.. muacks" and then the next day, they broke up.

funny in't it?

2005-02-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

things i've learnt today.
-do not eat in the hospital's foodcourt.
-1.you pay alot
-2.you get pratically no ingredients at all
-3.what's more, the taste sucks.

2005-02-07T01:39:00.000+08:00

darn.
alot of things are happening in school.
too quickly.

and i've got a gut feeling that i'll screw up emceeing for tuesday cny celebration.
ah. thats bad.

2005-02-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

ok.

i practically left my homework file in school and i cant do my history and ss. that may tan would just go ranting again. and there's still vocab and script to do. maybe im gonna burn midnight oil. heh. (:

oh yah. some sec1s thinks im fierce. LOL. [yah i know jasmin you're laughing now.] I AM? it's so ironical lor.

and there's class phototaking tomorrow. woots!

2005-01-31T23:19:00.000+08:00

sigh.

im caught in the middle.

one's my teacher
other's my friends

im trying to persuade them.
i cant help it if they dont wanna listen.

then im so afraid they'll say im sucking up to him which is totally so not true.
perhaps all of them dont understand how i feel.

i'm stressed. i'm confused. i'm in a fix
one day i'll just snap.
im only 14. F-O-U-R-T-E-E-N

--

and you.
dont you get it?
all the signs im showing you?
my hearts desires you. longs for you.
but where were you?
you've the only girl that makes me feel comfortable when im talking to you.
i see that vaguely image.
what am i doing? im doing it all for you. all for you.
not me. not us.
and you still dont get it?
my soul lingers.
and now my friend has also fallen for you.
i feel soso uneasy.
i dont want all my efforts to be put to a waste.
can't you at least feel a tiny winy bit?

ah f*ck those hormones.

2005-01-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

im tired.
mentally.

i dont know why.
i dont seem to care about discussions anymore.

maybe i shouldnt have attended it at all.
the motivations not there.

oh God help me.

2005-01-27T20:30:00.000+08:00

I Can't Cry Hard Enough
performed by: Julie Miller

I'm gonna live my life
Like every day's the last
Without a simple good-bye
It all goes by so fast
And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

I'm gonna open my eyes
And see for the first time
I've let go of few like
A child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky
There it goes beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

I'm gonna look back in vain
And see you standing there
When all that remains
Is just an empty chair
And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

There it goes, up in the sky
There it goes, beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

--
so much for our happy ending.
i know we all dont like it.
i know its unfair to all of us.
we will cherish the times we all had and will continue too!
and in our hearts, all of us will always be, ONE.

life still moves on. <3

2005-01-24T18:55:00.000+08:00

ok. tomorrow's gonna be a drag.

lessons end at 4.
choir till 6.
piano at 8-9.

no time for homework. sighh.

2005-01-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

i am officially going on a diet.

i will avoid the canteen when im in school.

and dont you tempt me.

2005-01-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

kick me
punch me
beat me
torture me
kill me
murder me

'cause the overwhelming pain i feel now is even worse than this.

i need you.
don't tell me you're gone.

2005-01-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

okaay people.

in case you didnt know, im taking B chinese.

i dont think there's anything to wow-wow about. but the thing is, i dont even understand what my teacher taught during the first lesson. how do you expect me to understand?!?

and whats the point of studying until so hard and then getting an F9 for it. its so damn demoralising lah.

but dont worry, i wont give up chinese. it's my mother tongue after all. cheers!

P.S. finally. after 2 whole months of hard effort, it paid off. the orientation camp i would dare say, was the most enjoyable i've ever planned. with such great and talented people like jasmin, yihui, hweeleng and nicholas in the team, what more can i want? this bgsong is for you guys! (:

2005-01-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

How to know if a ~~camp/~~campfire is sucessful.

2 signs tells it all.

1) People crying
2) People not wanting to go home until they're forced too

and we did it.

well done PREFECTS!

2005-01-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

omgosh.

i so almost freakking cried during chinese class in case you didnt know LOR.

mr wang was like showing this slide show about the tsunami victims.
with tons of pictures and words of encouragement.
its so sad lahh.

and i love history!!! whooo! not 'cuz of the teacher lah but the lessons. we learnt about WWI. and it's so cool cuz it's like only 10students taking hist and the remaining 32 are in the classroom having geog. and we had it in the LIBRARY. haha.

A-I-R-C-O-N.

IT'S BETTER THAN TO LEARN HOW VOLCANOS WERE FORMED IN GEOG. HAHAHA.

p.s. i still dont understand chemistry. ahh muck it.

2005-01-09T16:08:00.000+08:00

ok. im back from camp.

dont ask me if camp was fun.

a whole bunch of facilitators cried
all of us got scoldings from teachers
at least 20 had injuries
and 2 went to hospital

you do the thinking.

i'll update later. i wanna sleep now. i'm tired
AND i wanna go to school tomorrow.

P.S. I WILL NEVER WANT TO BE THE CAMP SAFETY HEAD AGAIN.

2005-01-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

OKAAY.

I'M OFF FOR CAMP

and wont be coming back till sunday.

so miss me people!

p.s. sam,wz,prisci, i wont be in church this sunday. so takecare! (:

2005-01-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE TEACHER MAN?

I HAVE

PHYSICS
CHEMISTRY
BIOLOGY
ADD MATHS
E MATH

ON THE SAME DAY

AND GUESS HOW THICK ARE THOSE MUCKING BOOKS ARE.

and the best thing is

the lesson's only half an hour.

p.s. its unfairrr. people's lesson ends at 2pm on tuesday but we have it until 4pm. grr.wankers.

2005-01-02T15:26:00.000+08:00

sigh.
it's the raining season again.

better hope it won't rain during the orientation camp
especially the campfire.

or else all our efforts for 2months will go down the drain.
and im gonna cry man.

pray for us.

P.S. happynewyear people! loves! <3

2004-12-30T20:12:00.000+08:00

hey people, here's a little note.

"Hi all,

Zhenghua is doing our part in helping to victims of the tsunami disaster. Below are the details.

When: Starting Jan 3rd 2005, Monday, 2pm

Where: Canteen (infront of ramp)

Who: Prefects would be at the collection booth to collect the items

What: Dried food stuff (canned food, instant noodles, rice) and clothes.

Please do your part in helping the world. Your little gesture may mean a lot to the victims.

Please also spread the word around to all your know. The people really need our help."

thanks and god bless. (:

------------

Attn: Prefects

For the above event we would need prefects to help. Do volunteer yourselves. Much help would be needed. If you would like to help, pls email your name and class for next year to Jasmin @ peiyun9000@hotmail.com (:}

2004-12-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

Camp Rules

1. Shirt is to be tucked in at all times
2. No wearing of sandals or slippers unless instructed
3. No crossing into sleeping areas of the opposite gender
4. No eating outside allocated areas
5. Wash all utensils at designated taps and washing areas
6. No electronic devices is allowed
7. Do not enter the CRCs area without a safety helmet
8. Do not leave the campgrounds unless you have obtained permission from camp commandant
9. Be punctual for all activities
10. Observe safety measures at all times
11. Be in proper attire for each activity
12. Conduct yourselves in a disciplined manner at all times.

yah. as if they would.

2004-12-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

IM SICK.

lets see.
sore throat.
slight fever.
cough.
headache.
cold.
flu
flu
and more
FLU.

p.s. choir was great today. i love it!! (:(:

2004-12-26T01:26:00.000+08:00

now i stood shattered.
i see the ripples as the rain falls.
i see the leaves rustling pass my ears.
i see the winds moving across me.
i see houses being lighted up for christmas.
i see children playing innocently at the playground.
i see the people outside with no purpose in their lives.
i see the mirror with only a half complete body.
i see myself.
but somehow. i could not see you.

where are you?
are you there to fill my other half?
i guess not.
seeing you go with someone else kills me.

--

argh shit. i'm having terrible moodswings now.

2004-12-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

i guess it's just a very long infatuation.

but just to let you know, since this is christmas

YOU were the one in which i purposely go online just to see you.
YOU were the one in my thoughts all the time, day and night.
YOU were the one that motivates me.
YOU were the one make me happy whenever i received your messages.
YOU were the one i picture in my mind when i was in pain.
YOU were the one i want to hug and give you my assurance.
YOU were the one i want to stare right in the eyes and tell you it's alright.
YOU were the one i want to protect and keep you from being bullied by others.
YOU were the ONLY one i wanna hold my hand and proudly say to my friends "hey this is my girl."
YOU were the ONLY one i love.

but i want to thank YOU, cuz you made me learn things i cant possibly learn myself.
but i also want to blame myself, for not having the guts to say that i like you.

but now. all's gone

2004-12-23T16:29:00.000+08:00

hey. found this picture in one of the old photo album

this is me, when i was 7! heh. :)

2004-12-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

ALONE

I didn't want to admit it,
It was easier to lie,
And hide the hurt and emptiness,
To smile instead of cry.
I didn't want to face the fact,
My life is full of pain,
And I long to stop my bleeding heart,
And maybe smile again.
'Cause i fell oh-so-forgotten,
So betrayed and so alone,
Without a trace of forgiveness,
And no soul to call my own.
I didn't want to admit the fact,
I cannot spread my wings,
And my happiness has melted,
Into tears and other things.
It's hard for me to hide the fact,
My wishes has no home,
And return to anguish,
Bow my head and cry alone.

2004-12-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

hey just came back from this circus. it's called the European Flying Circus and it's the WORST CIRCUS I'VE EVER SEEN. they cant dance. their stunts are not well coordinated. even my grandpa agreed too. and there's nothing to wow-wow about the stunts. cuz its so easy. [the school's wushu team can do even better]. i think the circus from china one is better.

basically, people think that "ang-moh" people are better. which is SO NOT true. take the circus for example. their jokes in't funny at all and people still laugh. hah. if this was a singaporean or a china troupe, i can bet you NO ONE will laugh.

its so pathetic living in this kind of society where angmoh are high regarded. like what my dad says. at his friend's department, the boss qualifications are worse then him. but just cuz he's an angmoh, the company employs him and pay him high salary. its so unfair. and the worse thing is that the angmohs are THE MOST STINGIEST PEOPLE I'VE MET. from my experience from work, NEVER SELL ANYTHING TO ANGMOHS. and dont bother talking to them. cuz all they do is just askaskask and in the end, they just give a stupid excuse and dont buy the product. surprise that its not us singaporean huh?

we live in a very sad society man. dont you people agree? even people pay us for NOT carolling for them. sigh.

Updated 16 Dec @ 11.02pm

hey people, if you think that im wrong or right in making this statement, or maybe after reading this, PLEASE do tag at my board and give your comments. i wanna prove to someone that what ive said is sadly, very true.

2004-12-14T19:45:00.000+08:00

i dont like my sister's daycare teacher.

she always makes use of my sister.
marks hers
make fun of her in front of everybody

i hate people like this.

you're getting on my nerves

and if she comes back crying

you'll see what i'll do to you and your daycare centre.

AND I MEAN IT.

2004-12-09T14:31:00.000+08:00

had a long talk with someone. ive came to realise something.

A Letter

From: Joel

To: Joel + some friends of yours

it doesnt matter who you are and what you do.

it's what u learn inside that counts

and when ur life is over, thats when you'll be proud of all the things you've done.

ive to admit that im not being myself for the whole of my sec2.

ive to admit that i have a little of an attitude problem.

ive to admit that i didnt put in effort for my studies.

ive to admit that i can maximise further my abilities.

the worlds unfair.

they might not give you a chance. [take note its NOT another. but just a chance]

but do they know what ive went through?

no.

and they dont give a damn.

what some of them think is only about themselves.

their self-centeredness. their egostic nature.

but tell you something.

everybody has the right to express how they feel.

its not just you, you and you.

dont think the world is revolving around yourself.

wake up joel.

do not take up to many things

you will not have time for your personal walk with God

thats very unhealthy.

relax and dont be tense.

everything will work according to God's plan.

you cant change it.

"And all these Blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, because you obey the voice of the Lord your God." Deu. 28:2

2004-12-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

inspired by song "i hope you dance" by ronan keating

Now together

i hope you still have your sense of wonder

when you ever see the sky which is full of colour

i would cover you and will always be with you, ever

and will say "i love you" forever

i hear the wind in my house whisper

and i will comfort you when you are deluded

and make assure me that you will never ever stumble

for after this song i sing, we will now be together.

-->

omgg!!! ms eleanor daughter is soooo cute. she has big eyesss! and she blew a kiss on me! haha. i love herr!

yupyup. went to see the jumping jellybeans. its so nicee!

ok. gotta sleep now. theres church tommorrow. i still havtta cut my hair. tata guys!

2004-12-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

hey. im back from church.

children camp was really fun. didnt go for carolling practice cuz im sosososo tired. i doubt i can even sing.

except for two things.

i dont like what someone said. she said im minusing their groups marks just because i dont like them. WTH! and im SUPER PISSED. HELLO? SINCE WHEN I SAID I DONT LIKE YOU GUYS. and you jolly know that im kidding only. comeon. STOP STEREOTYPING ME! its damn BLARDIE CHILDISH.

and I DONT LIKE IT WHEN YOU TWO ALWAYS GO AROUND CALL ME PERVERT.
I F-ING HATE THAT TOO. IT'S SUCH A DEGRADING REMARK.

well. thats all.

i love the kids and youfs! wahahaha. smile (:

2004-12-02T21:05:00.000+08:00

heyy.

yesterday was prom nitee. sooo funnn!!!

pictures uploaded already. go see. it tells more. (:

CLICK HERE!

2004-11-29T22:01:00.000+08:00

there

i saw you

standing

people brushed passed the both of us

our eyes met

froze

but there's still something in the middle of us

please

do let go

hey people. im back! anyway. im taking this time as a reflection period for me. so well. anyway. prom's on wednesday. gonna bring my digicam along. (: im so looking forward to it.

and btw, whats the point of doing so well in your secondary cca and you ignore your main one. you have skipped so many practice. its the same. is it fair to you main cca? is it fair to the people there. is it fair to theconductor there?

THINK. PEOPLE. THINK.

2004-11-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

Right In Front Of You
performed by celine dion

Life
It can twist your heart
Put you in the dark
I was cold and lonely
Doubt
It can close you in
Build the walls within
I let fear control me
I let go
Didn't know
Where the answer would be

Right in front of you
Right in front of me
We were looking
For somehow, some way
We couldn't see
That the love was always there
It's been around us everywhere
I had to fall to finally see
That you were right in front of me

Faith
It can lift you up
And we've got enough
To reach a new beginning
Love
Can withstand a storm
In the final hour
We'll find the joy in living
Don't let go
'Cause I know
Pretty soon you will see, yeah

2004-11-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

i dont give a damn anymore.

give me a break.

i quit.

2004-11-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

my mind's everywhere.

this. that. and that.

it seemed you care.
but you didnt.

but then.
i realised something.

why do something when people dont even appreciate you?
why do something for them when they never see the optimistic point of view?
why slog so hard for them when all they do is just bitching behind you?
why care?

then i looked into the mirror.
on how i speak.
im trying to change.
but do i have a chance?

came up with the conclusion.
-not everything is my fault.

my conscience is clear.
or isit not?
and should i ask the question "is it fair to me or not?"

im sick.
im tired.

imagine juggling 5balls instead of say, 1 or 2?

i dont know.
all i wanna do now is that i wanna hide inside that cupboard of mine.

and just resign. and retreat.

i just dont feel appreciated.
thats the worst thing that can happen to you.
at this point of time.

-hides-

2004-11-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

i really dont like the way how people in city harvest say things.

i mean. dont get me wrong.
they're nice people.

BUT

i dont like how they put things across.

its like. if you dont go to one CG meeting. they say you must attend cuz God will bless you and you cannot take the presence of God for granted.

it's like. hello? if you dont go for just one CG meeting. its means what. God won't love you anymore ah? he will disown you isit? come on man.

I know that He will always be there for me. my faith for Him will never die. :)

2004-11-10T20:09:00.000+08:00

different people have different flaws in their character.

take an example from me:

i tend to be very sensitive to what people say and always very defensive. and i know people hate it. it sometimes sounds rude to some of them.

but there's actually a painful story behind it to why i tend to speak in that way.

does anybody know?

NO.

that was in primary two and its still very clear in my mind.

i was almost expelled from my primary school.

i hated my p2 teacher then. she comes up with some fucking lie and says something to the principal in which i didnt do at all.

and i almost got caned.

for what?

no reason.

i didnt poke his eye until it bled. it was HE who did it.

AND JUST 'CUZ HE'S THE FUCKING NEPHEW OF THE VICE PRINCIPAL, IT BECAME MY FAULT.

and now. the thing i hate the most is people maligning me for things that i didnt do at all.

shit.

2004-11-06T14:46:00.000+08:00

heyy.

went to the cck camp yesterday.

regret

i regretted being the backup emcee for the night.

i regretted not being able to bond with my group.

i love my group. the're one hella nice people. unlike other groups, they didnt create any trouble for me. they also listened to me. they also didnt misbehave. and what did they got back in the end? they go no facilitator bonding with them during the night. how could i do such a thing? they deserve to enjoy themselves. for goodness sake it's their P6 graduation night. and they put up such a great skit for that night.

im sosososo sad.

2004-10-30T22:07:00.000+08:00

heyy.

nothing much to blog this week.

yup and monday's the posting result.

i dont really care if i go e1 or e2. i just wanna take history. i just loveee history. i dont care about the labelling. cuz its not that e1's the best class. i just hate it when people stereotype e1 as the best. this year's 2e1 is not even united at all. the difference is only the sciences and the maths for 3e1 and 3e2 respectively. triple sciences for e1 and "triple" maths for 3e2.

well there's this JC and Poly thing that is going through my mind now. dont really know if my choices now are correct. like what mum says, never fellow the crowd. go to where your heart leads you. but am i making the correct choice? cuz i know if i go to e2, i'll most probally end up in some poly.

i dont even think i can go to e1. was quite satisfied with my finals. but there's room for improvement. darn i didnt do too well for my mid year. pulled my results totally.

darn. i trying to keep myself motivated.

im praying hard to at least get into e2. or else. i'm screwed.

sheesh. im finding myself very contridicting.

2004-10-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

screw it.

shouldnt have gone to school today. i rather pon. cuz there's like nothing to do at all lor. its like today 1/4 of the class is empty. haha imagine it. 2E1. with 1/4 of the class empty. not fun one.

maybe i'll pon on thursday. maybe friday.

there's interclass tml. so dont intend to pon. heh. :)

2004-10-24T19:35:00.000+08:00

since ive got time, i'll tell you guys about my camp at sparkc obs.

well. sparkc was really really nice. really enjoyed myself. the insturctor Kenn was nice too. haha.

i was sick on the first day lah. so while the rest did rock climbing and abseil, i was at the doctors. then went to the air-conditioned room to sleep for ard 2hrs. then at night bathe for a while. then the high fever went away. then got a veryvery bad flu. blocked nose like siao. heh.

then the next day morning, went to do the challengeropes course. [which is that kind of high rope elements in orientation camp, but even higher. ard 4-5stories. then was very proud of wingkiong. haha. he overcame his fear of heights can? yup then went to pulau ubin obs campside 2 lah. [pfft. obs campsite 1 is SO MUCH nicer.] we built rafts! yay. and only 2 out of the 4 groups were sucessful! mine and joshua's. haha. the rest of the group's barrel all came out. :) yup then had jetty jump. its was like. you jumping into the sea with a life vest. its like so damn song.haha like commiting suicide like that. yii huan overcame her fears too. then later at night. Kenn cooked for us. haha. so sweet. yup. then supposed to pitch tent but then it rained. so stayed in the hall and slept lor.

the third day. which was yesterday. we had an expedition to bt tinggi. which was the highest point in eastern side of pulau ubin. grrr. then trekked to obs campsite 1 and went back to mainland lah. its like so fun lor. then leanrt a lot of leadership skills that kenn taught. he's so nice can?

oh yah. i have a really stupid girl in my group. she claims that the northing [of the compass] will turn to that direction if we turn it to that particular side. stupid lah. north will always be north. haha. then if you cant use a NEW can opener, it means that it's spolit. also the raft session in which i was the event leader. she also said "all the heavy one sit in front and all the light one sit at the back"

screwed her lah. heh.

2004-10-23T21:13:00.000+08:00

back. from camp.

too tired to type.

tell you guys later. :)

*flies*

2004-10-20T18:18:00.000+08:00

heyy.

there's gonna be this rock wall in our school already. abseiling too! whee! int that great. so nice.

well anyways gonna go some sparkc obs thingy tomorrow. willl be away ard 3 days or so.

oh yah. i DO HAVE A TAGBOARD. its under links in the other column!

2004-10-18T22:07:00.000+08:00

heyy.

changed my skin.

looks abit girly. heck.

but i love the song though! there you'll be - faith hill. [pearl harbor's theme song]

yup. kinda disappointed in my maths and science. but i actually got a sneak peek in my english overall SA2. you know what. i've got A1!!!! wheee~ and whats more I PASSED MY CHINESE! WOOHOO!! darn ive been waiting for this day to happen man.

p.s. yup. probally will encrypt password for my blogspot soon.

-//and he dreamt dreams in dreamland in his dreams. :)

2004-10-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

this is what i'll do to people if they want to
have another testi =)

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pattern= S$5.00 + 1 kiss from me
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Package: Write whatever I want to
write= S$5.00

all prices above includes GST.

LOLS.

2004-10-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

tired. boy oh boy. really sianned out
its like standing there without sitting for 11 whole hours.

but i met a few interesting customer over there. some nice one. some very unreasonable one.
and theres this on man. i didnt know he was the MD or CEO of some company. i was advertising the robotic vacumm cleaner to him. haha. then he said that im good and wanted me to work for him. but darn. im too young.

then also met some unreasonable one also. there was one customer to ask me to describe the whole process of it. it took half an hour. then he said he wanted to buy but at $450. its like HELLO? its already on promo. $488 instead of $638 and you still want discount ah? heck leh. then ask me to call boss. then obviously cannot lah. then he come and give me attitude then walk away. sheesh.

well. actually was kinda happy with myself. i sold 3sets yesterday. and actually supposed to be 2sets today but i had to leave early. well. i heard the previous person who worked had only sold 1 set in 1 month. lol.

well. okaay. gonna get my sleep already. ciao. :)

2004-10-11T15:57:00.000+08:00

whee. exams are officially over.

today's art. the last paper.

woohoo

and im going to work!!! tomorrow!!!

haha. at NGEE ANN CITY'S BEST DENKI.

the pay int that shabby too.

yay!

p.s. this song rawkss!! woohoo. and it also represents how i feel now.
sweet. :)

2004-10-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

omg my other aunt bought me a D&G wallet!!!

she just came back from hongkong btw.

its soo nice. but i'll save it for next year or smething. cuz i still love my jpg wallet.

haha. L A M E!

yep.gonna do my art already.

byee

2004-10-09T22:33:00.000+08:00

Quoted from Clement's Blog. totally agreed with what he said

"Is it fair that God created guys in such a way that we are not as inclined as girls in picking up subtle clues.

Ok. We didnt play dolls but indulged in sports. We didnt talk about girls from age 10 but decided that soccer was much a interesting topic than those pesky things that wore skirts at that time.

We came to the dating game late compared to our fairer counterparts, whom discussed and trade secrets on how to court a guy in 3 glances whatsoever.

It may be an unfair playing ground, girls liking a guy- but not to the extent that she will ask him out. Guys would just have to ask a girl out, initiate the first handholding, put forth the idea of a the first kiss.

Risk rejection. And maybe, be rewarded.

Im a player in this game and I need to live by its rules. It cant be changed. Even though Im reticient in whom Im speaking this to, I know in this game of courtship- The rules of the game, dont change.

And. I dont like the rules. But I like You."

but does she like me?

maybe not.

she's has always been in my imagination.

where we go, where we have fun.

it's just imagination.

and the fear of reject-ion.
it's just there.

*snaps fingers and goes away*

2004-10-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

just came back from my aunts place. she's gonna migrate to australia next year. on feb i think. boohoo. yep she's going to melbourne. int that great? she asked me to follow her to australia in december to go help her.

then also get to tour sydeny and brisbane. without my parents!! woo! brisbane lehhh!!!! can go gold coast!!! yay!

yep. gonna bathe now. boy oh boy. i'm sooo looking foward into going. haha. :)

2004-10-07T20:21:00.000+08:00

nanananananaaaneehhh//

science's over. whew.

it was superman's paper. obviously it's kinda tough.

but

i think i shld be okaay. haha. i think i shld get 75 and above. :)

tml's home econs. not studying. probally study later at night.

yap and if im not wrong, today's the apprentice last episode. bill won lah. so obvious. tsktsk.

2004-10-06T11:58:00.000+08:00

woo. geography rawks.

darn! the paper is easy.

well okaay. to me.

that showed that i studied. :)

okaay. im gonna rest then do science. tml's science.

haha. and there's one idiot posting at my doodleboard. whee~!
tYPe UnTiL lYk tHi5.
cant understand lah. unless that person is a 8 year old kid. probally i'll TRY to understand. heh. spelling also got tons of error. this reminds me of bok's tag-board. last time. wow. catfight.

well. let the games begin. :)

2004-10-05T16:57:00.000+08:00

arghh. maths paper 2 was such a killer.

darn.

okaay. im still gonna be optimistic.

;)

tomorrow's geography. and im not gonna take any chances.

grrr.

2004-10-04T14:04:00.000+08:00

woohoo. i just love this songg. je t'aime encore. w00ts!

anyway, today was english and maths paper 1. darn i didnt have time to complete one of my graph questions. erruughh.

well anyway maths paper 2's tomorrow.

im gonna do well.im gonna do well.im gonna do well.im gonna do well.im gonna do well.im gonna do VERY well.

:)

2004-10-01T19:53:00.000+08:00

heyyyoyoo.

finally chinese paper is overr.

okaay. its KINDA easy :)

i think i WILL

lol. im optimistic :)

oh yah. one more thing. NEVER EVER GO AND USE JOSHUA'S TOILET WHEN YOU VISIT HIS HOUSE TO STUDY. darn. the water overflowed and then whole toilet flooded. thank god that the water is clean man. lol. we were bailing out water. the stupid water keeps in flushing by itself until i shut the water tap.

oh then revised for math lah. hopefully i'll get 80 or smething. :)

yapp. gonna study later again. boy oh boy. :)

2004-09-28T16:15:00.000+08:00

my pizza RAWKED.

haha. though it looks like an omelette. yup. then added cheese, pineapple, ham&bacon and blahblahblah. it tastes great too. lols. then my milkshake was haha. welllll. nice also. :). at least its better than joshua. lol. he made iced-milo and laughed at me for bringing an ice-cream to school. well. that will show him. heh.

THEN

i finally realised why Kar Dong copied my named yesterday. he claims that i jaywalked. wtf. he DIDNT EVEN SEE ME CROSSING THE ROAD. i was at the opposite side of the school kicking the vending machine cuz it ate my $1.20. arghhh. then stayed back for detention. arghh mr sng said prefects double. so 2hrs lah. yike. then nightmare happened. mr shawal [vp in case you dont know]passed by. ofmg. he regonises mee! i was like there hiding my face. then mr lim [our principal] was with him!!! then mr lim was like "joel, jaywalked somemore." lol. how on earth can both of them regonise me?!?!?! sheesh. then mr lim was like talking to us then he was like asking "why dont we change our uniform to yellow? what do you all think about that?" my jaw dropped. YELLOW??!?!?!? can die lah. lols.

``okok stop here nowww. gonna do my maths.

2004-09-24T18:47:00.000+08:00

ayyyy.

there's something wrong with my doodleboard. sometimes people and i cant post. sheesh.

im only given ard 15 to surf the net. cuz exam's here and dad is like. blahblahblah. sighh. hahaha.

life. it's beautiful. without you.

or maybe not. :)

2004-09-23T15:42:00.000+08:00

it's just a cycle.

studying and exams.

gah. im trying to be self-motivated.

heh.

p.s. women are weird. and I DO NOT HAVE A BIG FAT EGO UPON MAKING THIS STATEMENT. :)

cheers to all the guys!

2004-09-21T16:42:00.000+08:00

eek.

why must chinese beee the firsttt paperrr?!??!?!?!

sucks lah.

anyway, im placed E1B combi as my first choice. theres like.

english
chinese [yepp MIGHT be opting for 'B']
double maths
triple science
anddd HISTORRRRYYY

hahaha. whoo! history!

okok. enough of crapping. im going to do my revision already. tata!

2004-09-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

i know my blog's a little messey.

but

i like it. haha.

anyway. wont be blogging often for the time being.

sheesh.

cuz exams are coming.

gotta study hard.

then can take triple science and double maths and HISTORRRRIEE. :) [if thats my final decision lah] history rawks my sock btw.

p.s. you're just a jealous freak. teacher somemore! everytime against prefects. what's your problem lah. somemore what. tell the people in our class to look down on the prefects. wtf. the prefects never even disturb or offend your CCA. somemore dare to quarrel with mr kenneth wee. you think what. you tua pai ah. but anyway, you're still a teacher. and i'll still respect you as one.

p.p.s. hey ppl. this is my motto! haha.

"i do the best i know - the very best i can; and i keep on doing so until the end" [abraham lincoln]

yay!. haha. since jasmin commented that the donald trump thing will make me a person of no values. hahaha. :)

[lols. i know it's lame] p.p.p.s. THERE IS A 95% POSSIBILITY THAT I WILL TAKE 'B' CHINESE NEXT YEAR. LOL. GOODBYE CHINESE TEACHER! :)

Simple Things
Jim Brickman feat. Rebecca Lynn Howard

Hey, time won't wait
Life goes by
Every day's a brand new sky
Every tear comes to drown
All that really matters in this crazy world
is you and I together baby
Just remember

The first leaves off the trees
The way you look at me
A thousand charming church bells ring
The simple things are free

The sun, the moon, the stars
The beating of two hearts
how I love the simple things
The simple things just are

So, here we go, let's just dance
Teach my soul to take this chance
Put my heart in your hands
Add up all the moments that we leave behind
Turn around and tell me baby we'll remember

The thunder and the rain
The way you say my name
After all the clouds go by the simple things remain
The sun, the moon, the stars
The beating of two hearts
how I love the simple things
The simple things just are

The ocean and the sky
The way we feel tonight
I know that it's the love that brings the simple things tonight
The sun, the moon, the stars
The beating of two hearts
I love the way the simple things, the simple things just are
I love the way the simple things, the simple things
just are
The simple things just are

2004-09-16T17:59:00.000+08:00

ayyyy.

i scrwed up my chinese oral.

but thats normal. :)

haha.

yep. and will be going to the placement talk later. omg they do havee historrryyy! shiettt. i wanna take history!!

thats if i can go into 3E1 lah.

oh yah. got this quote from donald trump's bography show at arts central yesterday.

"Winning is not everything. It's the ONLY THING."

yeah. it can be my motto in life. i love it. :)

okaay. tata!

2004-09-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

screw chinese teachers who tell students a day before that theres a chinese spelling [its includin' the A book btw]

i hate them.

im so NOT gonna study for it lor

oh yah. got this sec 2 placement talk this thursday night in sch.
prob ask mum to follow :)
just managed to ask Mr Ng abit about it
sheesh
theres such weird combinations.
i wanna take pure science. gah
ahaha and drop to 'B' chinese
yay!

yep.
i'll be going down to concord hotel on wednesday to check the place out for our sch's prom :))
if im not wrong its somewhere in orchard. lol

ok. gotta study for home econs now. tata.

2004-09-11T19:55:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA. I'M HIGH TODAY.

2004-09-10T14:41:00.000+08:00

hello!

I'M BACK!

haha. yep. camp was very VERY fun. we can even watch soccer at night! lol. i love the night jog also. omg. its like so cooling and so uber fun! [though the area abit ulu lah]

yep. of course theres some things i've not happy about la. lols.

i'll be postinga more detailed one at my LiveJournal. hehe. this is the reasons why sometimes i love locked journals.

yup. i might wanna catch a nap.
``cya!

p.s. uploaded the camp pics already. :))

2004-09-07T19:00:00.000+08:00

gah.

miss michelle said that she booked the wrong date. its supposed to be tomorrow.

sheesh.

yea so im like going to camp tomorrow?

cya!

2004-09-06T18:46:00.000+08:00

WHEE!

i'm off to camp tomorrow. :)

3D2N. im sure its gonna be fun! lols.

p.s. eep. i dont know what to bring for the camp. help!

tatas. people!

2004-09-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

i'm tired

haha. so so so so so tired.

our group washed like 20 over cars today.then the xavier group la. go and sntach potato's cars and go polish. arghhhh. $24 lehhh!! lols. its a misunderstanding la. i understand. =) see i so good. lols.

and omg. our group collected around $240!!!! its like above our projected sales which is like around $160 only.

yep. didnt go cg today. so bad. =)). im just soo tired.

okaay. going to bathe now. or else there will be pimples outbreaak. =)

2004-09-03T19:25:00.000+08:00

My pants splitted again today.

this is the 8th time i've spiltted my school's pant since i've enter zhenghua.

i think i've broke the school's record.

gah. tomorrow's carnival. i'll be washing my principal car!

lolol. i'm gonna scratch it. heh j/k.

well. i'll stop here today! bye!

p.s. OMG! MR DEREK LIM CALLED MY HP. i didnt pick up cuz i was still having lessons. THEN HE HEARD MY MAILBOX SONG. diediediedie.

2004-09-02T18:50:00.000+08:00

went to the senoko incineration plant today with the sec 2 normals.

they were like "sec 2e1 sucks" and "you think you first class you good ah?"

sheesh. we just boarded the bus and there it came insults. bah. i couldn't be bothered with it either.

its obvious that it will stink a little when you're at the incineration plant. then the sec 2 nomals girls were like complaining and this and that. its so obvious that it WILL stink a little what. lols. wing kiong and her sheng both said they're attracting attention. hahaa. no offence. i didnt say anything. (:

then went to bp plaza to buy the car wash spongy. heh. carnival is the day after tomorrow! whee!

haha. ok gotta bathe.

2004-09-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

GARFIELD

corny, funny, nice.

but

the plot wasn't that interesting.

good thing i learnt literature. =))

2004-08-31T23:34:00.000+08:00

hey people.

today's teacher's day celebration. ahh finally. a whole load off my shoulders! i still loved the performance. like the rock band also. omg. they changed the song to the reason by hoobanstank!

yep. the next big thing is the carnival on this sat. didn't managed to give out the conformation slip. so havetta give it out by thursday! yay! our group makes the LARGEST PROFIT LOR! other group prpjected sales is like only $35-45. our group is like. $160-$190! lol. four to five times more!!! what to do, this group got 3 aspiring businessmen mah. some more, the chairwoman of entreprenurship club is also in our team leh. of course you can see the difference lor!

haha. betta stop crapp. ya going to buy some things for mum and for the carnival thingys tml when im going to town.

p.s. sheesh. got rejected for 'o' level music. wth. not fair

2004-08-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

yeah yeah. today was a very long day. had to prepaer so many things for teacher's day celebration. gah. i made the badges together with weiling and bradley from the school's co-op. i thought it would be fun but that machine is like omg. so lousy. it keeps on jamming. haha then audrey [the co-op i/c] came and she was like you dont know how to do ah. then i was like, hello? you think you can remove that stuck badge out of that minuature mahcine, i give you $2. then she pull and pull, haha. still cannot come out. still, in the end, i was the one that managed to get it out. lols. i know its lame.

then we for rehearsal. omg i really like the parents support group performancee!!! so nice!!. they're gonna perform: that thing you do - the wonders!!!

then went to arrange the chair for the class party. then also help to decorate. so we were like playing with the balloons. filling it up with waters and throwing it. lol. then jasmin scolded us. eeeyer she so not steady one. hehe.

yep. just came back from the barber. argh. cut my hair till sooo short like botak.

well. im off! gonna make pizza for tomorrow's class party! tatas~

2004-08-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

omg i just love the gummies!! you know, the one the volleyball people are selling for the carnival. its rawks!!! its like directly from australia! so niceee i bought 3 packets [which costs a whooping $6. sigh]

anyway. gotta go to complete my carnival stuffs.! woohooo! im gonna be washing cars that day!!! now who wants me to wash their car?? its cheap and good! $6 only. heh.

p.s. yay! i won TEEGAN in table tennis also. he doesnt know how to screw the ball. haha. whee! [11-8, 11-1, 11-6, 12-10]

2004-08-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

i could have gotten A2 for maths. arghhh just one more mark.

2004-08-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

HE JUST SUCK

name? it's so bloddy obvious.

OTHER THAN
KENNETH TAN
WHO ELSE?

you can insult me for all i care. but DON'T YOU EVER EVER insult my family.
i didnt do anything wrong to you, you've insulted me all the way since last year. even after that fighthing incident about you SLAPPING ME ACROSS THE FACE IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS, i still ta-han. but now sorry la. i snapped already. in case if you are still reading my blog and want to know how angry i am, i'll tell you. BECAUSE OF YOUR FOUL MOUTH AND BLOG, I HAVE JUST BROKEN A WOODEN CHAIR.
just when i thought when everything was ok, you have done it again. for people who are sceptical about it. go read his blog [to be exact, his second recent post]. dont you know you're just a sickass? you think your GOD is the one true one. CAN YOU AT LEAST RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE BELIEFS? Yeah! and i find you VERY VERY DISREPECTFUL TO EVERYONE AROUND YOU. evidence? i have! you told your mum to fuck off. you were very crude when mrs chua ask you about the english word thingy. and you know what. the sanitary pad joke WASNT FUNNY AT ALL. you know. i think the girls felt EXTREMELY INSULTED. and lastly, you've insulted my family. not in your blog. but by your foul mouth. no wonder your own MUM asked you to get out of HER car in the middle of the highway. oh yah. come to your blog. SINCE WHEN DID I GO GLOATING ABOUT ME BEING IN THE EXECUTIVE COMMITTEE?!?!?! and IM NOT FLIRTING. I AM JUST MERELY ASKING ABOUT THE INVESTITURE PROCEEDURE! oh yah for your info, they approached me, i didnt approach them. you jealous say so la. its like damn obvious lor. i mean, i talk longer to jasmin or natalie doesnt mean that i like them what. whats the problem with you. WHY CANT I TALK TO PEOPLE FROM THE OPPOSITE SEX. its just that i talk to them more often lor. and now you come and act cute. it's all crap la. it's not gonna work.

oh yah and TWO more things.

1.DONT YOU EVER EVER USE THE WORD EXECUTIVE COMMITTEE TO 'FLATTEN' ME DOWN. EVEN THOUGH I MIGHT ON MY HP IN CLASS, I'M STILL A HUMAN BEING. DONT YOU TELL ME YOU NEVER DONE THAT BEFORE. AND IT IN'T YOUR BUSINESS ANYWAY. IT'S JASMIN'S. SO DONT COME POKING YOUR NOSE INTO THIS CRAP. AND I HOPE YOU WOULD RESPECT ME, I DONT CARE IF YOU RESPECT ME AS AN EXECUTIVE COMMITTEE MEMBER OR NOT. BUT AT LEAST RESPECT ME AS A HUMAN BEING. I STILL HAVE MY PRIDE.

2.MOST IMPORTANTLY, DONT LET ME CATCH YOU INSULTING MY FAMILY WITH YOUR FOUL MOUTH IN SCHOOL. IT IN'T COOL AT ALL. I WILL SLAP YOUR FOUL MOUTH IF THAT IS THE LAST THING I'D DO.

hey. people, sorry for ranting again. but this the only was to "let go". it's like 1.15 in the morning and no one's online. sheesh. i'm so disappointed. =(

2004-08-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

YAY!

I WON BRADLEY LIM IN TABLE TENNIS!!
5-11, 11-9, 8-11, 12-10, 13-11, 2-11

BUT

LOST TO CHEONG PAU.
11-5, 11-5, 11-5, 11-5

but at least i WON bradley!!! hehehe. well today's the last day of my CA. was science today. questions were all kinda weird. yup. then went to the sports complex to play some table tennis. [boohoo. the badminton halls were booked]. then there was this 2 old men at the other table. wahlau eh, their skils are like WOAH! damn pro. then they saw me and cheong pau playing, then asked us to play doubles with them. im sooooo honoured. hehe. but then one of the men was like. OMG his cutting is like so dead. cut like dunno what like that. then i am forced to cut back. then he cut using the other direction leh. then cheong pau didnt know. went and smack the ball. ahhh then we lost lor.

well anyways enought of me talking already. im gonna do the prefects morning duty! byee!

2004-08-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

woohoo!!!

i love my dad.

he bought me a new hp today!! woohoo!

hhehe. ok la. enough crapping. today's english paper was like weird. i mean like the paper 1. all the questions given are like descriptive. whyyy noo argumentative???? so i wrote somethine about me being a commando officer and going to iraq to rescue hostages. lol so funny. and Jonathan wrote A FAIRY TALE. you know. that kind of knight that saved princess from the dragon thingy. he told me that there was one arguementatvie but it was kind risky and might go out of point.. ARGH!!! whyyyy nooooooo argumentative??? I REALLY WANTED to write arguementativeeee. sheesh

welll. maths was kinda tough. esp with the last few questions. yap and geog was kinda okaay. heh. ok i gotta go study for science tml now. bbyeee!

2004-08-22T15:56:00.000+08:00

boohya.

tml's the start of CA2 for me.

well. best of luck to the rest also.

gotta study now. byeee!

2004-08-20T14:28:00.000+08:00

prefects bbq later.

going there to help out erm like 3.15pm?

yep. gonna bathe now. byee

p.s damien, dont worry. i'll be bringing my cam. hehe (:

2004-08-19T23:12:00.000+08:00

WOHHOOO!

PIANO EXAM IS FINALLY OVER

after 1 month of intense practising. whoo! at 10.06am i remembered. went into that dreadful room at methodist school of music. FEMALE EXAMINER. wahlaueh. she damn zai can anot? vannessa latarche. that was her name. she even can grade diplomas candidates lehh!! how pro is that. and the best thing is, she PLAYS FOR THE QUEEN OF ENGLAND!!!

then went back to school. then mrs chua was like punishing me and joshua. saw mr azlan shouted at us during free period for chinese and he was like "can you 2 stop touching each other!" wtH. then mrs chua was outside. then she obvously saw it lar. then cahnged our seat. FROM THE LAST ROW TO THE SECOND ROW! damn drastic. i cannot adaptttttt!! then later during lesson she ask who was colourblind, then joshua and i raised over hands up la. [its not a joke. joshua and i do have colourblindness] then she was like. i tend to be scaptical about you now. wtH. dont believe then dont believe la. say until like that for what. then give me and joshua that diao look. during lesson time, i desribing the hidden meaning about the composition, you say its doesnt link. IT TRUE WHAT, THE CAUSE AND EFFECT OF THE DAUGHTER'S ATTITUDE. I'M JUST BEING PRACTICAL. ITS ABIT LITERATURITIC [if there's such a word] BUT IT SURE IS PRACTICAL WHAT! YOU KNOW WHY DO I LOOK DREAMY IN CLASS? ITS NOT THAT IM SLACKING OR LAZY. ITS JUST THAT I HAVE TO PRACTICE MY PIANO. AND I NORMALLY SLEEP VERY LATE. I'M TIRED CAN? IM A HUMAN BEING ALSO. furthermore, im sitting at the last row leh, how to concentrate. youso far at the front row. i behind hear sometimes also cannot hear, of course i will sleep la! somemore i below the fan leh. comfortable leh. ahh. you'll know la. you'll have nothing to say if i do well for my ca2 to mark. haha. you wait and see.

well anyway, after school, went to music room for teacher's day celebration. i was the judge. haha. some of then perfrom quite well i must say. the npcc one is not bad seriously speaking. and OMG. THE ROCK BANDDDD HOW CAN I NOT FORGET!!! they played and sang "wherever you will go" by the calling leh!!! pro bo? haha yep then went home. reached home ard 6pm liao. i cant do or revise anything already. =(

theres bbq tomorrow evening. whee!`

2004-08-17T10:04:00.000+08:00

I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL TODAY

whee! stayed at home so that i can practice my piano rather than to go to school cuz there isnt any 'important subject' today. pratially also i had a slight tummyache in the morning so my mum asked me not to go also. yep and exam's on thursday morning. =) in which i dont need to go to school for the first half.. YAY! hahaha. no need to have art!!!! well. im gonna practice now. bye!

p.s. uploaded the investiture pics already. =))

2004-08-16T17:47:00.000+08:00

HEHEHEH.

today is our PREFECT'S INVESTITURE. lols.

and i realised that we had not enough blazer. so i havetta borrow it from victor. oh yah, i was so screwed. i reminded myself to bow at the audience. BUT then i forgotten to thank the principal. . sheesh. i just bowed.. boohooo. im so rude. =(

then had to go to teachers room to clear the $ matters for the prefect badge. yep and then gone with cindy, joshua and damien to celebrate my birthday. omg. they sortta gave me a treat lehh!! haha. love you guys lots.

oh yah. thanks people for all your well wishes and smses. love you lots and lots too =)

well. gotta play my piano and then go do my homework. sheesh. my piano exam is like 3days time and i heard from dorcas thats its a FEMALE examiner. omg?!??!?! why so suay oneeee. ok. better stop crapping. i dont wanna fail. =D

2004-08-13T14:51:00.000+08:00

YAY!

i pass my CA2.

BUT

someone is pissing me off again.

you're such a BITCH.
sorry la. but seriously.

you talk like one.
you walk like one.
you bitch like one.
you even LOOK like one.

you're just someone whom nobody likes and thats true.
no wonder he ditched you.
you dont know the reason why?
i tell you.
cuz you're so bitchy until he cant stand it.
it cant stand it too.
everytime use exco as an excuse to 'flatten' me down in everything.
i really really studied for my CA2.
i spent the whole wednesday night studying.
so does joshua.
yet you instigate the whole class.
say that i and him are partners in crime and we cheated.
how could you ever say such a thing?
just cuz we were not-so-good in chinese. thats didnt mean that we copied.
you know that joshua sim sze khai cried cuz of you?
and you still ask the class to rub it in.
you even told the teacher that we cheated.
and cuz of your big mouth, joshua has to re-sit for the paper.
i hate you.
i wished you had no friends at all.
dont you even know that your so called "gang" hates you?
everyone of them.
and now you're trying to go back to your previous clicks
and leave the others.
have you considered their feelings?
i doubt you did.

cuz you're such a BITCH.
go away. you baboon-ass sycophant.

JUST GO AWAY.`

2004-08-12T18:19:00.001+08:00

ahhhh. sheesh.
CHINESE CA2 WAS CRAP

i did like 3 out of 7 zhaojius
i completed like 2 out of 6 questions on leejiewenda

i think im gonna fail again. wahlau eh. the ms soh, set until so hard. even ah pau also said that it was hard. =)

erhh. gonna go to MGS this sat. have to go there to take some test for 'O' level music. i have to play my piano piece. omg. die. whyyyyy? why must it be my piano pieces?? yep. then after than then go for investiture rehearsal. lol. im skipping exco meeting! =) no la. j/k

2004-08-11T20:07:00.000+08:00

lol. yvonne let me use this bgsong for one weekk!! so nice of herrr. THANKSSS A LOT =)

2004-08-11T19:30:00.000+08:00

HOW SUAY CAN YOU GET MAN.

woke up at 7.05am today. booked a cab. rushed down at 7.15 for the cab to school. REACHED SCHOOL AT 7.25am HOW SUAY MAN. CANT IT REACH like 1 min earlier. and then i was book FOR BEING LATE and have to go for 1hr detention.

then i found out that my detention class is on august 16th. wtf. MY BIRTHDAY LEH! SERVING THE FIRST DETENTION IN MY LIFE ON MY BIRTHDAY??? wahlau. and ON TOP OF THAT, ITS THE PREFECTS INVESTITURE LEH!! THE FIRST DAY OF BEING INVESTED IN AS AN EXCO. gah. how pitiful =((

and sheesh. chinese CA3 is tomorrow. ahh. I WILL PASS. shit. i promised. im gonna go crazyyy. tianxiehanzi not that kind of MCQ, chengyu no hanzi, jiekou dont even have hanzi. HOW TO PASS!!!! stupid and all these are already /60MARKS LEH!!!!

ahh. i'll pracitice tianxiehanzi tonight. =D.

I WILL PASS BOTH MY PIANO AND CHINESE. I WILL! hahaha. =))

2004-08-09T16:07:00.000+08:00

heh. national day. well didnt managed to go to my aunts hse to watch the fireworks this year. cuz dad said we're gonna reach home very late. cuz of the nicoll highway crap. sheesh. =(

well. just finished my piano pieces. kinda pleased with myself. yay! finally i can perfect my second piece. but. there's still the first and last piece. well. i will make it. yeah!

gonna go out with dad later. go order pizza. yay! hehehe!

`yep end here.

2004-08-05T20:16:00.000+08:00

heyyyaa. sheesh. today was like. crap? i mean like the assembly lols. it was a huge mess.. anyway, had this chinese test which i THINK i MIGHT faill. cuz its like all tienxiehanzi lor. 50 questions!!!! bah! i filled in like 38? and most of it is like gibberish egyotian language. lols. oh yah. had prefect meeting in the afternoon. kanna scolded by miss michelle cuz MONEY WAS MISSING FOR THE NAMETAG COLLECTION thingy. OMG i was like HOW CAN??!?!? then got a lot of bad debts also. haha. then i stayed back to helped b-teok print the cert. used the internet, then the stupid comp sound on like damn blardiiee loud. then the games sound was like dominating the lab. ms choo heard it lehhh! hahah.

gonna help faisal pull the flag tomorrow. it was suppose to be jasmin but she has a performance to do. i feell so bad cuz like she's the vice-head and i like take over her job likdattt. sorry yah?

oh yah. she's being a bitch again. i agree with what bokkie said lor. she's like so old and DAMN blardieeee SHORT. than it go bitch in here and in there. you think you chio so good ah? i pour acid on your face then you know ah! arghhh.

well gootta play my piano. tatas!

2004-08-02T16:49:00.000+08:00

piano later @7pm. sheesh was thinking about my piano stuffs. i then realised that i havent gave my best shot yet. i didnt even practice. then i went to someone's blog and saw the quote of the week which is "You reap what you sow". Guess i have to really practice in order to pass.

wakeup. comeon wakeup joel. =S

gonna have this national day celebration on friday. which means short school hours and a long 4day holidays. whee. oh yah anybody wanna catch a movie this fri after NDP clebraton IM me yah? lols.

p.s. shit. talking about movies. i just remembered i owe weizhen a treat. shh. prays she doesnt read this line. hahaha. =)

2004-07-29T19:41:00.000+08:00

heyy. im back. yay. im in the exco. well so sad for josephine. why she never go in!!! not fair. my discipline ic for duties!! she's so good. wahlau.

anywaes. today a group of students from malaysia and taiwan came to visit our school. the excos had to entertain them. they're so polite. oh yah. they all EVEN had CHINESE lesson IN MY CLASS leh. then the jasmin ask me to stay in class for chinese then in end, i kanna homework to do wahlauehhh. yah they had a tour aroud our school. they said our sch's big compared to their sch. lol and the excos said that this girl from taiwan is chio? even my classmates. i only find her sweet looking nia la. not chio la. yepp then we played traditional games eg.hopscotch and kapteh.

anyway tehy left around 11.20am. took a group pic and then clear up the place and omggg. mr sng treated us to lunch lorrrr. he was like "joel the lunch's on me. make sure the excos dont pay at all." then he like took out a FIFTY dollar note and gave it to us lehh. kaoz ehh

oh yah. stayed back to train the guys for choir sectionals. lol. its damnn diffcult to be a section leader lor. lol. have to gather everybody then must have their attention then can start. then it ended ard 3pm

then after choir, went for exco meeting. got a lot of things. confirm position. lols. im duty i/c again. heh. oh yahh ms michelle bought pizza. ateate and ate.

then after meeting, went to talk to ms michelle with cheng hoon and bokkiieee. knew some things which i felt abit pissed. sheesh. teachers said im distracted these few days.

im stressed.// end here =(

2004-07-27T21:19:00.000+08:00

heyy. today had home econss cooking!! lols i forgot to bring my cooking things minus marks lehh. but anyway ms choo said our pizza rocks. yay! i think we got 9/10 for today which is really VERY GOOD already. ms choo gave tons of onions. lol. that explains why joshua keeps on farted today. lols.

oh yah i just realised that MS ANG (our new choir teacher in charge who has just joined mr yeo and ms ho to suffer hell from the members lols.) she is from New Creation Church!!! she's on the choir. lol. she sang together with HILLSONG before!!! yeah. lols. all my three teachers in charge are chistians!! even my conductor also!! he's the conductor of a church choir. lol bless the lord. and yah lols. she had tons of HILLSONGS CDS. she lent me 3 plus the united album. lol. now i have the united one liao. haha. samuel still havetta wiat for weizhen to lend him. heh =)

p.s. i give up la. i had been patient with you already. and to think you slapped me across the face in front of everybody in class today? i mean sorry to punch your face back la but i had burst already la. you keep on calling me names. even in buses and french class. i have my pride and ego to okaay. you pushed too far already.

p.p.s. sorry to all those that ive shouted at the ramp today. i thought you all didnt do your duty and was talking there. and on top of that i was in a bad mood. i apologise can? peace out yeah? =)